Last summer, I had a bad attitude, or maybe I was actually clinically depressed? It was the heat. I can handle it being hot in the summer. I cannot, however, handle it being hot in the spring and fall as well. If the triple digits would mind their manners and stay in their own season, we wouldn't be so much at odds.
Anyway, things started unraveling fast about September. I remember one specific day, I was in my car, waiting at a light to turn onto the freeway, and the theme song from Phineas and Ferb came on. This was the extended, album-release by Bowling for Soup and it's actually called "Today Is Gonna Be A Great Day"
There's a part where they sing:
This could possibly be the best day ever
And the forecast says that tomorrow will likely be a million and six times better.
So make every minute count: jump up, jump in and seize the day.
And let's make sure that in every single possible way...
Today is gonna be a great day.
This was the opposite of what I was doing. My days were not the best days ever. I was laying down quietly, waiting to be burned to a crisp by the blinding Arizona sun. (Seriously, though, there is no cloud cover ever, so the sun is always in my eyes... even if it's cold outside.) I needed to do something to make sure that in every single possible way my summers would be great.
I sort of snapped that day and announced to Tyler that I was leaving next summer.
"So... we're getting a divorce...?" he asked.
"No no no, I love you. I'm just not going to live here."
"You're moving forever...?"
"I don't know."
"Where are you going?"
"I don't know. All I know is that I won't be here."
My first plan was that I would get a job as a summer camp nurse and take my children with me. Tyler said he could come with us and work remotely during those weeks and watch the kids during the day. I applied with several camps and got accepted at a camp in Maine.
I didn't end up doing this because it seemed likely that Tyler would get a job in California AND HE DID! We leave in a few weeks and I am beyond excited and grateful once again to Phineas and Ferb for making the world a better place.